It was such a double-edge sword because on one aspect, I wanted to tell her everything. I needed someone to vent to about my problems—someone who could possibly understand my fucking struggles and help me through them, but I couldn’t get past that nagging fear of rejection. I didn’t want my Mistress—I didn’t want Bella—to see me in such a poor light. As this fucking weak and pathetic man who didn’t have the courage to stand up to his family or friends and profess the truth of his love for the BDSM lifestyle…regardless of the consequences and where it led him.
Even though I was her sub and will be until the day that she cast me away, I also needed her to see me as more than that. I wanted her to see me as a man that she could one day, possibly, consider being with.
In the end, I wanted Bella to know me more than anything and that need took precedence over my pride.

Edward Cullen ~ Chapter Twenty One




Monday, January 24, 2011

Friday, January 14, 2011

~Chapter Seventeen Teaser~


“What is your safe word, Edward?” my Mistress repeated, this time she had loosened her grip on my hair and was bent down at the knees so she could get face to face with me.
My mind tried really fucking hard to concentrate on the question she was asking, but with her mouth just a mere inches away from mine and her soft breath wafting over me, intoxicating all of my senses, I found it to be quite difficult to not attack her lips with a feverish kiss—let alone try to form a coherent god damned sentence.
Fuck! Answer her!
Why couldn’t I fucking think straight? What was about her that turned my every thought into complete mush anytime she was near? It wasn’t like the question she asked was some epic brain teaser. In fact, I’d been thinking about this particular topic for a long time now.
What the fuck was my safe word?
Bella chuckled softy as she cupped the side of my face. “It’s okay if you don’t have one. We can choose one together, but we to both need to be in agreement about it. It’s important to have a word that’s easy for you to remember and the both of us can recognize during our play.”
It was like I became a fucking mute, and as much as I wanted to respond to her, I couldn’t. All I could do was stare at her, my eyes roaming over her beautiful face as she smiled warmly. There was something very different about the way she looked at me and it didn’t take me long to realize that I wasn’t being punished…
 

Friday, January 7, 2011

~Chapter Sixteen Teaser~



The sincerity in her voice and the pity behind her eyes as she looked back up at me made shit pretty fucking obvious. The bitter truth was that she wasn’t kidding. There was no elaborate plan to trick me. The reality of the situation was that Bella expected me to go in there with that old fucker!
Is she out of her mind?!
“Edward,” she spoke calmly and directly. “These things happen.”
I narrowed my eyes at her. “What things, Angela? What the fuck are we talking about?”
“Ssh, you need to calm down,” she said in a hushed tone as she tried reaching out for me to keep me seated.
However, I was too quick for her, and before she knew it, the chair was slamming up against the wall and I was pacing like a caged animal.
“No, I will not fucking calm down,” I yelled as I pointed in the direction of the dungeon. “Is your sister serious? Does she really want me to go in there with that…that…freak?”

Monday, January 3, 2011

Character Profile

Best Qualities: Beautiful, intelligent, sincere, loving, quick wit, level-headed, calm, good with kids, perceptive.

Worst Qualities: Secretive, distant, suspicious, calculating, controlling.

Weakness: A well behaved sub, chocolate and pop music.

Strengths: Her love for students and the ability to spot bullshit.

Likes: Classic art music, blues music, modern pop music, Caravaggio, Salvador Dali, Edvard Munch, organic food, classical movies: Casa Blanca, I'm No Angel. Her Audi S5,purple flogger.

Dislikes: Immaturity, rap music, smokers, drinkers, the cold weather, people who dressed their pets like humans, and insecure men.



“Revisions must be made until the perfect pitch is achieved. Therefore, as your Domme, I have to learn to improvise…"


Biography: Born in Mesa, Arizona to Charlie and Renee Swan. Moved to California when she was four years old and a year later her baby sister, Angela Dawn was born. She is from a middle class family, her mom was a registered nurse, and her father was a police officer. In the early nineties, her parents move her to a suburb outside of Chicago, Illinois where she attended a prep-school. In 2003, her parents died in a car accident two days before her high school graduation, leaving her to take care of her baby sister. She is now a school teacher at a catholic elementary school and a dominatrix on the weekends in her privately owned Dungeon.

Birthday: September 13, 1985

Age: 25 years old

Height: 5'6

Weight: N/A

Description: Fair-skinned, creamy, with long, dark brown hair and brown eyes. Her face is heart-shaped, with prominent cheekbones, a thin nose and a narrow jaw with a rounded chin. Her lips are a little out of proportion, her upper lip is a bit fuller than her lower. Her eyebrows are darker than her hair and more straight than they are arched.



Clothing Style: Romantic, classic, sophisticated, and demure.

Personality: She tends to be standoffish at first, but she guards her love ones and her life fiercely. She's protective of things she cares about deeply. She is very sarcastic and quick-witted. She's mature, independent, and sees straight through people.

~Mistress Marie on a one on one interview~


The first thing I notice about Bella Swan when she came in to talk to me was that she was really quite small. She hardly seem like the stern Mistress that I heard so much about, and this intrigued me. What was it about her that made her so damn intimidating?

Lets find out...shall we?

Cutecanukgirl: Thank you so much for coming and talking to us.

Bella Swan: Oh, you're welcome. I'm surprised you wanted to talk with me.

CCG: You've been quite the little mystery to our readers for sometime and they wanted to get a chance to get to know you better.

BS: ((Chuckles, shaking her head)) Okay. What do you want to know?

CCG: First off, what was your first impression of Edward?

BS: Which time? The coffee shop where I first met him or the several occasions of him stalking me there after?

CCG: Hell, lets go with both.

BS: Alright...Well, my first impression of him wasn't really anything special. He was just a young kid with these amazing green eyes, but that was where it ended. I was already late for school that day and I had no interest in him whatsoever. Even when he asked for my number, I just remember thinking that if I wasn't where I was in my life that I may have very well given him my number.

CCG: So you were attracted to him?


BS: *smirks* Yeah, very much.


CCG: So, why not give him your number?


BS: Well, I knew what he was all about. It wasn't the first time I'd been hit on by some college frat boy and I'd been down that road. It wasn't something I cared to get into again...despite the fact that he was attractive.


CCG: So, lets talk about the stalking.


BS: *smiles and rolls eyes* It was one of those moments where you're unsure if this guy was for real. Granted, his little brothers went to school there, but seeing him at my place of work wasn't what I expected.


CCG: Did you recognize him?


BS: Not a first, but when he finally got the courage to approach me, I knew who he was. It was confusing to see him again and I was trying to figure out how he found me, but when I saw Anthony and Masen gawking at us...well, it didn't take me long to catch up.


CCG: The Cullen twins are so cute. Anyways, lets get back on track. Now, the challenge that you two had about who would crack first. Who won that one?


BS: You know what, I am not sure. It depends on who you ask. I personally think I won, but Edward seems to think he's the one who won.


CCG: Really?


BS: Yes, that cocky little shit made it quite known to me on one occasion. I also see it from time to time in the little smirks he makes when he thinks that I am not looking, but I always see him...no matter where he is.


Bella Swan was very open with me and it was hard not ask her what the question that is all on our minds...Do you love him?
CCG: What made you take him on as a sub--oh, shit, I can't ask that. There are rules and apparently I am told that gives to much away. My bad. I'll redirect. How did you acquire 'The Horse'?


BS: *Smiles* My baby? Well, a friend of mine, another Domme, had told me about this punishment she had given to her slave when he disobeyed her. She recommended putting a sub on the for at least an hour, sometimes two...me, I prefer thirty minutes...tops. Anyways, I had a guy that I knew through close circles and asked him if he could build it for me. He said yes and two weeks later that little puppy was resting soundly in my playroom. The rest is history.


CCG: How did Edward take his first ride on the horse?


BS: Rather well. I was very impressed by him. Previous subs of mine couldn't handle the horse and they always bitched about their balls. It can be a painful experience, especially when the sub slips and slams their nuts on the horse, but it wasn't like how they described it. Edward was different in that aspect because he never complained. In fact, if it wasn't for his walk, I would've never known that he was even sore. Like I said, his poker face was impressive.


CCG: What makes a good submissive?


BS: Most Domme's would tell you that it's obedience and in a way, it's a key factor. What's important to me is devotion and love. It feels good to have a sub love you in a way where they trust you completely. They know that no matter what that you will be there to protect them, nurture them,  and take care of them. It's hard place to get with a sub, but it's possible. That is when the collar comes in.


CCG: How did you get into this life of being a Dominatrix?


BS: At first it was a way to earn extra money. My best friend, Tanya, had this gig and she told me that it paid really well and all I had to do was whip men into submission. I thought it was prostitution, but she assured me that it wasn't like that. So, I tried it. It wasn't a love at first flog kind of story and honestly, I didn't think I could do it. Then I met Aro and he trained me how to be a good Domme. Do you know what makes a good Domme or Dominant?


CCG: A trusty whip?


BS: You have to be a good submissive first and that's what I was. It's hard to explain why I chose to let this life carry over into my personal life and the best way I can explain it is by saying it was who I have always been.


CCG: You were a sub? For who?


BS: Aro, but that's another story for another time. *Winks, taking a sip of her water*


CCG: Well, I am just...shocked. Um, before we get to the rapid fire round, I like to ask about the Chasity belt and the thought behind that.


BS: It's important to have for two reason: One, when training a new sub, I have to make sure that they aren't giving themselves self gratification and often when they are newbies, they have no self control. Two, I tend to only put it on seasoned sub's as tool for pleasure or a tool for punishment. It depends on the circumstances. In Edward's case, it was for all of the above.


CCG: That's fucking awesome. Okay, I am completely in awe of you and I am going to get straight to rapid fire questions. Are you ready?


BS: I am ready.




Beauty and grace.
Whats your favorite toy?


My purple flogger.


What's your favorite sex position?


Any position where I am on top.


Do you have a food you would like to lick off a sub?


No, but a sub can lick whip cream off of me. Of course, I choose the location.


What's your favorite movie?


Recent? I would have to say Black Swan...amazing.


Thongs, boy shorts, or nothing?


I like lacy boy shorts.


Favorite Cullen twin?


*laughs* I love them both. I don't play favorites.


The song you listen to the most?


Shut up and drive by Rihanna. Well, she's a serious vice of mine.


If you could go anywhere in the world, where would that be?


Somewhere warm and with a beach.


The most annoying habit of Angela's?


Her Mickey Mouse pajamas at work.


Alright, last question and I am going to make this a trend. It's called, what color are Edward's balls?


Am I supposed to guess?


No, you just got to tell me.


Oh...okay. I would say they were...pink.


Are you sure?


Yeah, I checked them before I left. They were pink.




Until then Dommella lovers xx

Sunday, December 26, 2010

Character Profile

                                        ~Edward Robert Cullen~

"Wants and needs are two different things, and what I wanted far outweighed anything else, because I was a selfish creature and I wanted to have her."
Best Qualities: Passionate, loving, funny, intelligent, talented, good-looking.

Worst Qualities: Short tempered, confrontational, obsessive, hasty, hot-headed, smoker, drinker.

Weakness: His Mistress.

Strengths: His Mistress.

Likes: Classical music, Modern Rock, Indie, Albert Einstein, Stephen King, John Barnes, Woody Allen, Alfred Hitchcock, Quentin Tarantino, Johannes Brahms, Antonin Dvorak, Debussy, Bud Light, EverClear, Steak and Scallop Potatoes, Arizona and Marlboro Red's.

Dislikes: Tofu, Ignorance, gossip, Zima's, Bourbon, Physics, The cold, and The patch.


"The desire to have her and the fear of disappointing her was raging inside of me."

Biography: Born and raised in Chicago, Illinois. He’s in his sophomore year at Northwestern University and is hoping to be an architect when he graduates. He is from a wealthy family. His father, Carlisle Cullen, is a respected surgeon and his mother, Esme Cullen, used to be a decorator, but took off time when she gave birth to his twin brothers, five year olds, Masen and Anthony. His best friends are Emmett McCarty and his cousin Jasper Whitlock.

Birthday: June 20, 1989
Age: 21 years old
Height: 6’2
Weight: 175lbs
Description: Lean, muscular, and slightly lanky. He has dark green eyes and bronze colored hair, messy and tousled. He has a strong jaw line, chiseled, but still somewhat boyish looking. His complexion is fair and he burns quite easily in the sun.

"Yeah, I wished that was my deal. I wished that my mind wasn't such a chaotic mess. I needed to just forget about her and move on with my charmed life."
Clothing Style: Enjoys nice things and tends to gravitate towards designer clothes, but with a casual flare.
Personality: He's a child prodigy and is very talented with musical instruments: Piano, guitar, and sometimes drums. Although he likes to act like he's nonchalant about life and tries to be easy going, he tends to feel strongly about things, and loves his friends and family deeply.

        ~Edward Cullen on a one on one interview~

I had a chance to sit down with Edward recently and we had a little chat. Some things you may already know about this insanely handsome guy, but some other things you'd be surprised to find out.

CuteCanukGirl: Thank you for taking the time out to talk to me, Edward. How are you feeling?

Edward Cullen: Oh, you're welcome. I am feeling really good. *smirks* Do you mind if I smoke?

((With a smile so devastating, how could I say no?))
CCG: Sure, be my guest.
EC: Thanks. *Lites cigarette and looks fuck hawt doing it*

CCG: Alright, first things first. How did you meet Bella?

EC: *chuckles* At Peets Coffee and Tea. I went up there to meet my friend Emmett, and Bella happened to be there that day. Em saw her first and pointed her out, but the crowd was so massive, I couldn't see her at first. It wasn't until I went in to the coffee shop to find her that I actually ended up bumping into her.
CCG: What was your first impression of her?
EC: I thought she was gorgeous and I couldn't believe the hold that she had over me. So, it kind of annoyed me when she blew me off. That shit never happens to me and I was a little shocked.
CCG: Come on, you've never been turned down by a girl before?
EC: Never. *Laughs* I mean, I guess there was a time when I was in grade school and a girl kicked me in the shin when I tried to offer her my swing...or was it my cookie? Anyways, I guess I never had to really work to get a girl to go out with me...or sleep with me.
((I find his cockiness to be quite charming and attractive. I start to see what all the hoopla is about))
CCG: So, what made Bella so different? Why was she the one you choose to go after so hard? Was it because she was the first girl to turn you down?
EC: At first it was. I thought my attraction for her was merely because she blew me off, but the more I got to know her, the more I realized there was so much more that I needed to know. She was this puzzle that I was dying to put together.
CCG: What about your friends, Emmett and Jasper, have they ever met Bella?
EC: *hesitates* Um, no. Actually, you're the only one who is privy to this information. I mean, not even Bella knows that I am here. If she knew...where is this going to be posted?
CCG: It's not going to published or anything.
EC: *Inhales his cigarette* Good. Like I was saying, this information isn't something I tell just anyone.
CCG: Why is that?
EC: Because people are fucking judgemental and I don't expect them to understand. The only reason I am telling you any of this is because you're in the lifestyle and you know what it's like. It's that little something inside you that makes you tick. You can't explain it. All you know is that it's the only thing in your life that is real.
CCG: Oh, I understand you completely. Were you a Sub before you met Bella?
EC: No. Bella is the one who introduced me to it...well, she was the reason I got myself involved. It was a bit of an eye-opener for me, but what really surprised me was how much I enjoyed it.
CCG: Are you talking about the sex?
EC:  Not really. I mean, yes the sex is fucking amazing, but it's more about the anticipation and the sensations that this lifestyle gives me. I've never thought that the buildup would be better than the explosion, but it is. Also, I am a little fascinated with the pain aspect. I guess I am what you would call a 'masochist'.
Edward Cullen came dressed in a leather jacket and ready to gab...to me! Ain't I lucky?
CCG: Yes, I do believe that's what they call it in the community. Speaking of which, didn't your Mistress take you out on the town and even to some parties?
EC: *smirks* Yes, she did. It was a little interesting to say the least, because I wasn't even expecting half the shit that I had seen and it made me realize a lot of things.
CCG: Which is?
EC: Well, it made me see that the horse wasn't so bad and that my Mistress was a lot more kinder than most Domme's out there. I mean, I think I saw one Domme shit on her Sub's face and that dude fucking got off on that. It freaked me out and I couldn't understand what the dude was doing, but apparently he liked it. To each his own, I guess.
CCG: So, the Human Toilet is not your thing? What do you like best in the playroom, if you don't mind me asking?
EC: Oh, not at all. I guess I would have to say that I like to be flogged the best. Any sort of cock and ball play is really nice though. I didn't think I would at first, but my Mistress can be very convincing. *smiles*
CCG: Anything else you would like to divulge?
EC: I really like to body worship my Mistress, but that happens rarely. What she really likes is foot worship and it can vary between kissing her feet or painting her toe nails.
CCG: You paint her toe nails?
EC: *laughs* I do. Which I am damn proud of, too. She says that I paint her toe nails the best, and even people she pays at the salons doesn't do it as well as I do.
CCG: Do you cook for your Domme?
EC: Sometimes, but not well. She's been letting me take cooking lessons. I think she's sick of me burning shit all the time.
CCG: *laughs* Yeah, I had a Sub who used to burn down half my kitchen. He was too cute to punish though. Alright, I have some quick questions for you from twitter. It's like rapid fire. Are you ready?
EC: Bring it.
CCG: Alright, here we go.
Whats your favorite condom?
I hate condoms...next.
Boxer or briefs?
Boxer briefs.
Whats your favorite sex position?
*chuckles* Any...I am soooo not picky.
Whats your toy of choice?
I like the flogger the best...it feels good on my skin.
How did you like the anal fingers?
*chokes on drink* What? Anal fingers? Are you fucking kidding me? Does it really say that? *Shows him the tweets* Holy shit...um, yeah...They were okay. *shakes head* I can't believe someone asked that.
It gets better.Would you ever ride the horse again?
No.
Whats the best features of your Domme?
Her eyes...and whip.
Are you in love with your Domme?
Yes. More than she will ever know.
Whats your favorite band at the moment?
La Roux is pretty kick ass, but I am also really into Modest Mouse.
Favorite movie?
I really liked Clockwork Orange. I know, I am fucking weird. My friends tell me I have some mental issues, but I really enjoyed Inception, too.
Favorite animal?
Dogs. I really like Collies...you know, like Lassie.
Favorite color?
Black...no, purple.
Favorite time of day?
Noon.
Alright, last question. Are you ready?
Hit me.
How blue are your balls, Edward?

*Laughs* They are royal fucking blue and they might turn purple pretty god damned soon.
                                                                             ~~~




~Until then Domme lovers~

Thursday, December 23, 2010

What the hell is up with James?

"You'll find out sooner than later that you mean nothing to her, and she'll get rid of you like she got rid of me."


James, James, James. That is the million dollar question. What the hell is up with this dude? He shows up out of nowhere and ruins moving in day for Edward, resulting in a punishment, and then he wanders into the twins school.

It seem as though this guy has a long history with Bella and for some reason things ended badly, and can't seem to let go.

Was he a previous Sub?

Maybe a past boyfriend?

At this point it could actually be a bit of both....

A lot of you are asking this of me in almost every review and I do promise to reveal it to you very soon. The good news is that the truth may not be all that surprising.

Until then Dommella Lovers xx

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Mr. Pinky

As my first post, I thought I would give you a little insight to Mr. Pinky. He's quite the little companion to our Domme and knows how to set any Submissive ablaze.
Mr. Pinky made his debut in Chapter Fourteen ~Wax On, Wax Off~

This little bundle caused quite a stir and I am positive that he'll make another appearance very soon.

Until then Dommella lovers xx