It was such a double-edge sword because on one aspect, I wanted to tell her everything. I needed someone to vent to about my problems—someone who could possibly understand my fucking struggles and help me through them, but I couldn’t get past that nagging fear of rejection. I didn’t want my Mistress—I didn’t want Bella—to see me in such a poor light. As this fucking weak and pathetic man who didn’t have the courage to stand up to his family or friends and profess the truth of his love for the BDSM lifestyle…regardless of the consequences and where it led him.
Even though I was her sub and will be until the day that she cast me away, I also needed her to see me as more than that. I wanted her to see me as a man that she could one day, possibly, consider being with.
In the end, I wanted Bella to know me more than anything and that need took precedence over my pride.

Edward Cullen ~ Chapter Twenty One




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“What are you thinking?” Edward asked me.
“I’m thinking about how big of a failure I am,” I answered truthfully.
We were still holding each other in his classroom and I realized quickly how dangerous that was...that was where Edward and I went wrong. The need we both felt to touch each other was costing us, and if I didn’t put a stop to it, well, I knew things were going to get worse way before they got better.
Edward narrowed his eyes at me disapprovingly. “You're not a failure, Bella.”
The furrow in his brow only increased as I put some distance between us. He reached out to bring me back in, but I shook my head stubbornly.
“I’m not running,” I assured him, “but we need to stop being so open. While I’m here, we need to at least pretend I’m your student.”
Edward ran his hands through his hair roughly and I envied him at that moment.  Only a minute had passed and I was already losing my resolve.
“She’s right, you know.”  
My body tensed to the voice that suddenly was in the room with us. It was unfamiliar and I couldn’t place it for the life of me, but this unknown voice was agreeing with me--which meant, this unknown person heard everything I said…
Oh shit, oh shit…
Bella Swan is a 28 year old woman who is a narcotics detective for the Seattle Police Department. Bella is assigned to go undercover as a high school student to bring down a massive drug ring fronted by the elusive Drug Lord Aro Volturi. Bella soon finds herself falling for her English teacher Edward Masen...
Edward Masen is instantly attracted to this new student, but can't pursue a relationship with a young girl.
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Will these two keep things in perspective or will their ethics be damned?

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