It was such a double-edge sword because on one aspect, I wanted to tell her everything. I needed someone to vent to about my problems—someone who could possibly understand my fucking struggles and help me through them, but I couldn’t get past that nagging fear of rejection. I didn’t want my Mistress—I didn’t want Bella—to see me in such a poor light. As this fucking weak and pathetic man who didn’t have the courage to stand up to his family or friends and profess the truth of his love for the BDSM lifestyle…regardless of the consequences and where it led him.
Even though I was her sub and will be until the day that she cast me away, I also needed her to see me as more than that. I wanted her to see me as a man that she could one day, possibly, consider being with.
In the end, I wanted Bella to know me more than anything and that need took precedence over my pride.

Edward Cullen ~ Chapter Twenty One




Monday, January 24, 2011

Friday, January 14, 2011

~Chapter Seventeen Teaser~


“What is your safe word, Edward?” my Mistress repeated, this time she had loosened her grip on my hair and was bent down at the knees so she could get face to face with me.
My mind tried really fucking hard to concentrate on the question she was asking, but with her mouth just a mere inches away from mine and her soft breath wafting over me, intoxicating all of my senses, I found it to be quite difficult to not attack her lips with a feverish kiss—let alone try to form a coherent god damned sentence.
Fuck! Answer her!
Why couldn’t I fucking think straight? What was about her that turned my every thought into complete mush anytime she was near? It wasn’t like the question she asked was some epic brain teaser. In fact, I’d been thinking about this particular topic for a long time now.
What the fuck was my safe word?
Bella chuckled softy as she cupped the side of my face. “It’s okay if you don’t have one. We can choose one together, but we to both need to be in agreement about it. It’s important to have a word that’s easy for you to remember and the both of us can recognize during our play.”
It was like I became a fucking mute, and as much as I wanted to respond to her, I couldn’t. All I could do was stare at her, my eyes roaming over her beautiful face as she smiled warmly. There was something very different about the way she looked at me and it didn’t take me long to realize that I wasn’t being punished…
 

Friday, January 7, 2011

~Chapter Sixteen Teaser~



The sincerity in her voice and the pity behind her eyes as she looked back up at me made shit pretty fucking obvious. The bitter truth was that she wasn’t kidding. There was no elaborate plan to trick me. The reality of the situation was that Bella expected me to go in there with that old fucker!
Is she out of her mind?!
“Edward,” she spoke calmly and directly. “These things happen.”
I narrowed my eyes at her. “What things, Angela? What the fuck are we talking about?”
“Ssh, you need to calm down,” she said in a hushed tone as she tried reaching out for me to keep me seated.
However, I was too quick for her, and before she knew it, the chair was slamming up against the wall and I was pacing like a caged animal.
“No, I will not fucking calm down,” I yelled as I pointed in the direction of the dungeon. “Is your sister serious? Does she really want me to go in there with that…that…freak?”

Monday, January 3, 2011

Character Profile

Best Qualities: Beautiful, intelligent, sincere, loving, quick wit, level-headed, calm, good with kids, perceptive.

Worst Qualities: Secretive, distant, suspicious, calculating, controlling.

Weakness: A well behaved sub, chocolate and pop music.

Strengths: Her love for students and the ability to spot bullshit.

Likes: Classic art music, blues music, modern pop music, Caravaggio, Salvador Dali, Edvard Munch, organic food, classical movies: Casa Blanca, I'm No Angel. Her Audi S5,purple flogger.

Dislikes: Immaturity, rap music, smokers, drinkers, the cold weather, people who dressed their pets like humans, and insecure men.



“Revisions must be made until the perfect pitch is achieved. Therefore, as your Domme, I have to learn to improvise…"


Biography: Born in Mesa, Arizona to Charlie and Renee Swan. Moved to California when she was four years old and a year later her baby sister, Angela Dawn was born. She is from a middle class family, her mom was a registered nurse, and her father was a police officer. In the early nineties, her parents move her to a suburb outside of Chicago, Illinois where she attended a prep-school. In 2003, her parents died in a car accident two days before her high school graduation, leaving her to take care of her baby sister. She is now a school teacher at a catholic elementary school and a dominatrix on the weekends in her privately owned Dungeon.

Birthday: September 13, 1985

Age: 25 years old

Height: 5'6

Weight: N/A

Description: Fair-skinned, creamy, with long, dark brown hair and brown eyes. Her face is heart-shaped, with prominent cheekbones, a thin nose and a narrow jaw with a rounded chin. Her lips are a little out of proportion, her upper lip is a bit fuller than her lower. Her eyebrows are darker than her hair and more straight than they are arched.



Clothing Style: Romantic, classic, sophisticated, and demure.

Personality: She tends to be standoffish at first, but she guards her love ones and her life fiercely. She's protective of things she cares about deeply. She is very sarcastic and quick-witted. She's mature, independent, and sees straight through people.

~Mistress Marie on a one on one interview~


The first thing I notice about Bella Swan when she came in to talk to me was that she was really quite small. She hardly seem like the stern Mistress that I heard so much about, and this intrigued me. What was it about her that made her so damn intimidating?

Lets find out...shall we?

Cutecanukgirl: Thank you so much for coming and talking to us.

Bella Swan: Oh, you're welcome. I'm surprised you wanted to talk with me.

CCG: You've been quite the little mystery to our readers for sometime and they wanted to get a chance to get to know you better.

BS: ((Chuckles, shaking her head)) Okay. What do you want to know?

CCG: First off, what was your first impression of Edward?

BS: Which time? The coffee shop where I first met him or the several occasions of him stalking me there after?

CCG: Hell, lets go with both.

BS: Alright...Well, my first impression of him wasn't really anything special. He was just a young kid with these amazing green eyes, but that was where it ended. I was already late for school that day and I had no interest in him whatsoever. Even when he asked for my number, I just remember thinking that if I wasn't where I was in my life that I may have very well given him my number.

CCG: So you were attracted to him?


BS: *smirks* Yeah, very much.


CCG: So, why not give him your number?


BS: Well, I knew what he was all about. It wasn't the first time I'd been hit on by some college frat boy and I'd been down that road. It wasn't something I cared to get into again...despite the fact that he was attractive.


CCG: So, lets talk about the stalking.


BS: *smiles and rolls eyes* It was one of those moments where you're unsure if this guy was for real. Granted, his little brothers went to school there, but seeing him at my place of work wasn't what I expected.


CCG: Did you recognize him?


BS: Not a first, but when he finally got the courage to approach me, I knew who he was. It was confusing to see him again and I was trying to figure out how he found me, but when I saw Anthony and Masen gawking at us...well, it didn't take me long to catch up.


CCG: The Cullen twins are so cute. Anyways, lets get back on track. Now, the challenge that you two had about who would crack first. Who won that one?


BS: You know what, I am not sure. It depends on who you ask. I personally think I won, but Edward seems to think he's the one who won.


CCG: Really?


BS: Yes, that cocky little shit made it quite known to me on one occasion. I also see it from time to time in the little smirks he makes when he thinks that I am not looking, but I always see him...no matter where he is.


Bella Swan was very open with me and it was hard not ask her what the question that is all on our minds...Do you love him?
CCG: What made you take him on as a sub--oh, shit, I can't ask that. There are rules and apparently I am told that gives to much away. My bad. I'll redirect. How did you acquire 'The Horse'?


BS: *Smiles* My baby? Well, a friend of mine, another Domme, had told me about this punishment she had given to her slave when he disobeyed her. She recommended putting a sub on the for at least an hour, sometimes two...me, I prefer thirty minutes...tops. Anyways, I had a guy that I knew through close circles and asked him if he could build it for me. He said yes and two weeks later that little puppy was resting soundly in my playroom. The rest is history.


CCG: How did Edward take his first ride on the horse?


BS: Rather well. I was very impressed by him. Previous subs of mine couldn't handle the horse and they always bitched about their balls. It can be a painful experience, especially when the sub slips and slams their nuts on the horse, but it wasn't like how they described it. Edward was different in that aspect because he never complained. In fact, if it wasn't for his walk, I would've never known that he was even sore. Like I said, his poker face was impressive.


CCG: What makes a good submissive?


BS: Most Domme's would tell you that it's obedience and in a way, it's a key factor. What's important to me is devotion and love. It feels good to have a sub love you in a way where they trust you completely. They know that no matter what that you will be there to protect them, nurture them,  and take care of them. It's hard place to get with a sub, but it's possible. That is when the collar comes in.


CCG: How did you get into this life of being a Dominatrix?


BS: At first it was a way to earn extra money. My best friend, Tanya, had this gig and she told me that it paid really well and all I had to do was whip men into submission. I thought it was prostitution, but she assured me that it wasn't like that. So, I tried it. It wasn't a love at first flog kind of story and honestly, I didn't think I could do it. Then I met Aro and he trained me how to be a good Domme. Do you know what makes a good Domme or Dominant?


CCG: A trusty whip?


BS: You have to be a good submissive first and that's what I was. It's hard to explain why I chose to let this life carry over into my personal life and the best way I can explain it is by saying it was who I have always been.


CCG: You were a sub? For who?


BS: Aro, but that's another story for another time. *Winks, taking a sip of her water*


CCG: Well, I am just...shocked. Um, before we get to the rapid fire round, I like to ask about the Chasity belt and the thought behind that.


BS: It's important to have for two reason: One, when training a new sub, I have to make sure that they aren't giving themselves self gratification and often when they are newbies, they have no self control. Two, I tend to only put it on seasoned sub's as tool for pleasure or a tool for punishment. It depends on the circumstances. In Edward's case, it was for all of the above.


CCG: That's fucking awesome. Okay, I am completely in awe of you and I am going to get straight to rapid fire questions. Are you ready?


BS: I am ready.




Beauty and grace.
Whats your favorite toy?


My purple flogger.


What's your favorite sex position?


Any position where I am on top.


Do you have a food you would like to lick off a sub?


No, but a sub can lick whip cream off of me. Of course, I choose the location.


What's your favorite movie?


Recent? I would have to say Black Swan...amazing.


Thongs, boy shorts, or nothing?


I like lacy boy shorts.


Favorite Cullen twin?


*laughs* I love them both. I don't play favorites.


The song you listen to the most?


Shut up and drive by Rihanna. Well, she's a serious vice of mine.


If you could go anywhere in the world, where would that be?


Somewhere warm and with a beach.


The most annoying habit of Angela's?


Her Mickey Mouse pajamas at work.


Alright, last question and I am going to make this a trend. It's called, what color are Edward's balls?


Am I supposed to guess?


No, you just got to tell me.


Oh...okay. I would say they were...pink.


Are you sure?


Yeah, I checked them before I left. They were pink.




Until then Dommella lovers xx